Confusion

I've hoped and believed many times. But it always distresses me. I'm so direful that I cannot hope and believe anymore because I've been longing for something but I wasn't able to have it.

What could be the reason once again for me to believe? I want to keep on believing but I'm afraid.

I have to be forbearing. Patience is something that is difficult to attain. I need to have a change in my perspective.

Thanks to you, I can have this strength. For this, I will do my very best to keep on believing.

It will require me a lot of work, but I know you got my back. ^^

My life, my destiny

“It’s my life and my destiny.” That’s what we usually say; therefore, we have the control over the things that we want to achieve, gain or even lose. But why is it that there are things that don’t usually go our way?




It’s your life and your destiny. Yes, you have the control over it, but let us not forget some other outside factors which can affect us.



This fact makes us realize that we have to go with the flow of life. We can always make decisions for ourselves-good or bad. The results may be appealing to you but not at ALL TIMES.


Lesson learned: Be prepared and be flexible.

Steamed Chocolate Moist Birthday Cake With Chocolate Ganache

My friend and I made this steamed chocolate. It was her first time so I instructed her and let her do it. I just did the decoration (which I think enough for a tyro like me). I forgot where I got this recipe. I was looking for the link just to give credits from the maker of this, but I failed. Good thing I was able to jot it down. Anyway, here it is. ^^




Steamed Chocolate Cake


Ingredients:

A)

1 cup evap milk
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup good quality cocoa powder
1 cup unsalted butter (250g)
3/4 cup instant coffee powder


B)
3 eggs (lightly beaten)
1/2 condensed milk
1 tsp vanilla extract/essence

C)
1 1/4 cup plain flour
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp baking powder



Directions:

1) Mix A together and cook over low fire until sugar is completely melted. Stir constantly to prevent from burning. Set aside to cool.

2) Mix A and B until well-blended.

3) Sift C together and add into mixture. Mix well until there no lumps.

4) Grease the round pan and steam over high heat for 45 minutes (It would be better to place an aluminum foil so it can be cooked easily. Also, check it every minute and remove the moist or water on the foil to avoid having droplets on the cake. This will make some holes on the cake or actually makes your cake a bit weird.)

5) Cool pan for 5 minutes.



Chocolate Ganache

Ingredients:

8 ounces (227 grams) semi-sweet/ bitter chocolate cut into small pieces
3/4 cup (180ml) heavy whipping cream (any whip cream will do)
2 tbsp unsalted butter


Directions:

1) Place the chopped chocolate in a medium sized stainless steel bowl. Set aside.

2) Heat the cream and butter in a medium sized saucepan over medium heat. Bring just to a boil.

3) Immediately pour the boiling cream over the chocolate and allow to stand for 5 minutes.

4) Stir with a whisk until smooth.

5) Glaze the cake and put it in the freezer for 3 minutes. 6) Continue coating until your desired outcome.



Royal Icing (using egg whites)

Ingredients:

2 large egg whites
2tsp fresh lemon juice
3 cups confectioner's sugar, sifted


Directions:

1) In the bowl of your electric mixer, beat the egg whites with lemon juice.

2) Add the sifted powdered sugar.

3) Beat on low speed until combined and smooth.

* The icing needs to be used immediately and transferred to an airtight container as royal icing hardens when exposed to air.

Cover it when not in use.





This is the outcome of our cake:

Start and build. If it collapses, do it over again

Maturity is needed in life. We need to move and carry on with our lives. Petty fights are not worth your time. Being a cry baby can't solve your problem either. But hey, it makes you feel comfortable.





Crying is the only outlet for you to let your feelings out. So go on, cry it out until you feel tired doing so. Good feeling comes after you do that and positive thinking can come to your minds once again. It's just a cycle so learn to start and build and collapse and do it over again.

A Lesson to Remember

Think about before you whine.


Do you really have the reason to feel that way?



Have you ever thought if your reason is really a reasonable one? Or a waste of time?


I know that life’s always tough. There are times that the world has put a hex on you-that you’ve been carrying and suffering from it for a long time.


But think again. Consider what you have now.


Blessings you’ve received to be exact. Simple things like the presence of people who support you all the way, the fact that you’re still alive, have something to eat, have work, etc. There’s always a reason why you’re here. Whatever happens, happens. And reason caused it to happen.

So what's up?

Marriage

Engagement

Pregnancy

The fads nowadays?

I constantly check my facebook account just to amuse myself like playing games, checking others' profiles and liking some of their posts. Doing this as a routine can sometimes be dull, but finding out some news about your school mates way way back, can arouse your interest to visit their profiles once in a while.




Sort of an investigation? Well, they made you do that. Nowadays, the people whom I know by name and I really know well have lots of things to expose. So, what are the popular topics? One post will shock you saying that she's going to have a baby or she already gave birth. Another one will even show off their engagement or wedding rings. I haven't got anything against them, but I'm just wondering if these are the fads at present. It's not a feeling of enviousness but maybe a wake-up call that I'm getting older? OH MY! But actually, I find it so strange that maybe starting last year and up to know, these kinds of issues are the hot topics on facebook. They're bombarding that social networking site.



It's their moment to be proud of those experiences, I suppose. That's why I'm giving them that moment. But for now, I'll concentrate more on my career that is, if I do have. :D

24 today, tomorrow's FOREVER

We've been away yet we're still overcoming the loneliness.

People always wonder why people have long-distance relationships. They also say that there's no point in having that kind of relationship as if it's a joke. I was also one of them before, but now, everything's becoming clearer.

It wasn't actually their or our choice. We we're left with that choice. Maybe we need to be used to not being together as a test. In the end, we can spend our lives being together. We just have to wait and be patient.

For an emotional weak person, it is indeed very tough. But, it is a way of making yourself stronger. It's not that you have to be used to it or get the hang of it. You just have to try overcoming not being with your partner. He/ she may not be physically present with you, but you always have to remember that you have someone to look forward to-someone who loves and cares for you. Someone who means everything for you. This will always remind you how lucky you can be having that kind of person. Many people oftentimes failed to realize this. I know how badly you want to see you partner and be with him/ her. Sulking for a long time won't bring anything to you. Therefore,it's USELESS. Whenever you feel depressed, just think of the memories that you had with that person and you'll always feel grateful that at least, you have that person.

"Being depressed is useless." That's what my boyfriend told me. It sounds as if he doesn't really care about me, but he has a point. I didn't feel hurt when he gave me this remark .I took this one as a challenge. For all that he says, I take it as an advice. So for what I am now, it's because of him. I'm really thankful for having him.

We might not be together most of the time, but it's enough for us to know that we have each other no matter what. Thanks to our constant communication and our time for each other, this relationship became possible.

We will still continue holding on until we can be together. It's a dream that's waiting to be fulfilled. :)



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I later realized how difficult and tedious it is to make a cartoon movie.^