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In confusion

I'm not strong; I'm fragile. But I'm trying to conceal it somehow.

I'm not certain; I'm lost. But I'm trying to find my way.

I'm not complete; I'm unsatisfied. But I'm trying to enlighten myself.

I am afraid. Please tell be how to be brave.

I TRUST in YOU

Every night after work sitting in a taxi, I usually ponder about a lot of things. I just thought that my everyday life is always a ROUTINE. I shouldn't complain about this because I have work, I can earn and I'm not a bum. But there's always a feeling of discontenment which I know for a fact that I SHOULD NOT and I have NO RIGHT to feel that way. In fact, I should be thankful.

Part of me is still incomplete, I guess. I'm uncertain about a lot of things. I don't know where my life is heading for. I just hope I can find the enlightenment that I need.

Lord, please help me. I'm entrusting everything to you.

Leave and work

"When is she gonna go back?" The other one replied, "Why, do you want her to leave soon?" "It's not that I want, but she being there can send me more money than now. I even have to pay for some of her expenses like food, but she doesn't give me enough contribution at home."

If she's feeling impatient about the situation, the person whom she wanted to leave must be feeling it more. She had been wishing to go back, earn and help them. But with the situation that she has now-stuck and uncertain of the things around her, all she can do is just wait.

She wants her to leave for money? Well, people are made like that-to work not only for themselves, but for others as well.

Old Couple

I was in a jeepney sitting at the far end. Sitting in front of me were an old man and a woman.I thought they were a couple and that was proven when got off the jeepney. When the old man got off first, she took the hand of the old woman, whom I presumed his wife, and assited her. Isn't it cute? I was expecting that the old man would just leave the old woman, but I was touched when he guided her.
Now, I'm thinking how good could that be- couples who stick together until their old
age. It's such an amazing story.

There' still a reason to SMILE

I just let my feelings out and suddenly, I thought of this song. I listened to it and made my feeling better.

For those who are down,feeling depressed and confused, or for those who need to be enlightened and be uplifted for whatever they're encountering now, this is a good song for you.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FREqXhhYb6s

Confusion

I've hoped and believed many times. But it always distresses me. I'm so direful that I cannot hope and believe anymore because I've been longing for something but I wasn't able to have it.

What could be the reason once again for me to believe? I want to keep on believing but I'm afraid.

I have to be forbearing. Patience is something that is difficult to attain. I need to have a change in my perspective.

Thanks to you, I can have this strength. For this, I will do my very best to keep on believing.

It will require me a lot of work, but I know you got my back. ^^

My life, my destiny

“It’s my life and my destiny.” That’s what we usually say; therefore, we have the control over the things that we want to achieve, gain or even lose. But why is it that there are things that don’t usually go our way?




It’s your life and your destiny. Yes, you have the control over it, but let us not forget some other outside factors which can affect us.



This fact makes us realize that we have to go with the flow of life. We can always make decisions for ourselves-good or bad. The results may be appealing to you but not at ALL TIMES.


Lesson learned: Be prepared and be flexible.

Steamed Chocolate Moist Birthday Cake With Chocolate Ganache

My friend and I made this steamed chocolate. It was her first time so I instructed her and let her do it. I just did the decoration (which I think enough for a tyro like me). I forgot where I got this recipe. I was looking for the link just to give credits from the maker of this, but I failed. Good thing I was able to jot it down. Anyway, here it is. ^^




Steamed Chocolate Cake


Ingredients:

A)

1 cup evap milk
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup good quality cocoa powder
1 cup unsalted butter (250g)
3/4 cup instant coffee powder


B)
3 eggs (lightly beaten)
1/2 condensed milk
1 tsp vanilla extract/essence

C)
1 1/4 cup plain flour
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp baking powder



Directions:

1) Mix A together and cook over low fire until sugar is completely melted. Stir constantly to prevent from burning. Set aside to cool.

2) Mix A and B until well-blended.

3) Sift C together and add into mixture. Mix well until there no lumps.

4) Grease the round pan and steam over high heat for 45 minutes (It would be better to place an aluminum foil so it can be cooked easily. Also, check it every minute and remove the moist or water on the foil to avoid having droplets on the cake. This will make some holes on the cake or actually makes your cake a bit weird.)

5) Cool pan for 5 minutes.



Chocolate Ganache

Ingredients:

8 ounces (227 grams) semi-sweet/ bitter chocolate cut into small pieces
3/4 cup (180ml) heavy whipping cream (any whip cream will do)
2 tbsp unsalted butter


Directions:

1) Place the chopped chocolate in a medium sized stainless steel bowl. Set aside.

2) Heat the cream and butter in a medium sized saucepan over medium heat. Bring just to a boil.

3) Immediately pour the boiling cream over the chocolate and allow to stand for 5 minutes.

4) Stir with a whisk until smooth.

5) Glaze the cake and put it in the freezer for 3 minutes. 6) Continue coating until your desired outcome.



Royal Icing (using egg whites)

Ingredients:

2 large egg whites
2tsp fresh lemon juice
3 cups confectioner's sugar, sifted


Directions:

1) In the bowl of your electric mixer, beat the egg whites with lemon juice.

2) Add the sifted powdered sugar.

3) Beat on low speed until combined and smooth.

* The icing needs to be used immediately and transferred to an airtight container as royal icing hardens when exposed to air.

Cover it when not in use.





This is the outcome of our cake:

Start and build. If it collapses, do it over again

Maturity is needed in life. We need to move and carry on with our lives. Petty fights are not worth your time. Being a cry baby can't solve your problem either. But hey, it makes you feel comfortable.





Crying is the only outlet for you to let your feelings out. So go on, cry it out until you feel tired doing so. Good feeling comes after you do that and positive thinking can come to your minds once again. It's just a cycle so learn to start and build and collapse and do it over again.

A Lesson to Remember

Think about before you whine.


Do you really have the reason to feel that way?



Have you ever thought if your reason is really a reasonable one? Or a waste of time?


I know that life’s always tough. There are times that the world has put a hex on you-that you’ve been carrying and suffering from it for a long time.


But think again. Consider what you have now.


Blessings you’ve received to be exact. Simple things like the presence of people who support you all the way, the fact that you’re still alive, have something to eat, have work, etc. There’s always a reason why you’re here. Whatever happens, happens. And reason caused it to happen.

So what's up?

Marriage

Engagement

Pregnancy

The fads nowadays?

I constantly check my facebook account just to amuse myself like playing games, checking others' profiles and liking some of their posts. Doing this as a routine can sometimes be dull, but finding out some news about your school mates way way back, can arouse your interest to visit their profiles once in a while.




Sort of an investigation? Well, they made you do that. Nowadays, the people whom I know by name and I really know well have lots of things to expose. So, what are the popular topics? One post will shock you saying that she's going to have a baby or she already gave birth. Another one will even show off their engagement or wedding rings. I haven't got anything against them, but I'm just wondering if these are the fads at present. It's not a feeling of enviousness but maybe a wake-up call that I'm getting older? OH MY! But actually, I find it so strange that maybe starting last year and up to know, these kinds of issues are the hot topics on facebook. They're bombarding that social networking site.



It's their moment to be proud of those experiences, I suppose. That's why I'm giving them that moment. But for now, I'll concentrate more on my career that is, if I do have. :D

24 today, tomorrow's FOREVER

We've been away yet we're still overcoming the loneliness.

People always wonder why people have long-distance relationships. They also say that there's no point in having that kind of relationship as if it's a joke. I was also one of them before, but now, everything's becoming clearer.

It wasn't actually their or our choice. We we're left with that choice. Maybe we need to be used to not being together as a test. In the end, we can spend our lives being together. We just have to wait and be patient.

For an emotional weak person, it is indeed very tough. But, it is a way of making yourself stronger. It's not that you have to be used to it or get the hang of it. You just have to try overcoming not being with your partner. He/ she may not be physically present with you, but you always have to remember that you have someone to look forward to-someone who loves and cares for you. Someone who means everything for you. This will always remind you how lucky you can be having that kind of person. Many people oftentimes failed to realize this. I know how badly you want to see you partner and be with him/ her. Sulking for a long time won't bring anything to you. Therefore,it's USELESS. Whenever you feel depressed, just think of the memories that you had with that person and you'll always feel grateful that at least, you have that person.

"Being depressed is useless." That's what my boyfriend told me. It sounds as if he doesn't really care about me, but he has a point. I didn't feel hurt when he gave me this remark .I took this one as a challenge. For all that he says, I take it as an advice. So for what I am now, it's because of him. I'm really thankful for having him.

We might not be together most of the time, but it's enough for us to know that we have each other no matter what. Thanks to our constant communication and our time for each other, this relationship became possible.

We will still continue holding on until we can be together. It's a dream that's waiting to be fulfilled. :)



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I later realized how difficult and tedious it is to make a cartoon movie.^

My celebration, my preparation.

This is my first-ever unusual birthday. Celebrators usually eat out and treat their friends or vice versa, but this time it's different. I already went out with my friends like a pre-celebration. But today, I celebrated it with my family along with my niece and nephews. My mom usually cooks or prepares for this day, but it has changed. To have a celebration, I have to do it myself. Well, there isn't a problem about that so I volunteered to cook something on my birthday. I already bought the ingredients in advance, but they weren't enough. That's why on the day itself of my birthday, I went out with my niece to buy some additional ingredients.


I woke up at 8 am because malls open at 10 am. I really intended to go there at an early time because I know that it'll take me almost half of the day to finish everything.


The Menu:

For the main course: Penne with red sauce,homemade garlic bread and hot dog on stick with marshmallows (it's common to have this during kids' parties. Mine is an exception haha)






For dessert: Chocolate steamed cake topped with red-colour white chocolate and pretzels stuck around it.





The Labour


I started cooking as soon as we got home which was around 12nn. I finished at almost 5 pm including eating in between ( I was so hungry and tired that I couldn't help it anymore. You can't function well if you're hungry, right? :D ). If you think it was exhausting to do that by yourself, well you're hell right. I was dead tired. But seeing the outcome of the dishes and family's reaction, I really felt accomplished and of course, happy. I just realized how difficult it is to prepare almost everything by yourself (My niece and nephews helped a bit. They were in charge of making some garlic bread.)


Thank God for today because it's a reminder of the time when I was born. I also feel grateful for the people who greeted and remembered my birthday. All in all, I'm happy! :)

Good Girls Go Gotcha!

It was just a sudden thought. Dianbel was the mastermind of this activity, but it turned out that everybody loves to try it except for Donabel (she wanted to go ice skating, but for others it wasn't interesting ANYMORE). Due to boredom and of course, we all wanted to see one another, we decided to pursue this plan. One of our friends wasn't able to join us due to his HECTIC schedule. Well, maybe he really is. :)

We decided to meet at 8am for our schedule time was set at 9am (it was made an hour earlier because of a reaction). It's better to be early because we don't want to get lost. It's gonna be a waste of time if it happens.

I arrived 30 minutes earlier than the scheduled meeting time. Few minutes later, everybody arrived. The last one was Dianbel who just lives maybe 15 minutes away from our meeting place (maybe that's usual for people who are near the meeting place-to be late).

We hailed an fx going to Antipolo and started the journey. Trusting manong the driver, we thought we could reach the place easily. But he didn't even know where the place is. We got off somewhere and needed to take a tricycle, but even them don't know the place. They were discussing,but it seemed that they really haven't got any idea. This made us wonder WHY. Anyway, to end that I just showed an improvised map which I drew. Then, they finally realized that we already passed by so we needed to go back again. What a waste. In the end, we were able to reach the area. We thought we could already start, but we were WRONG.

On that day, the van, which was supposed to take us there to the playing field was not available. In short, we need to walk on foot. It wasn't a problem for us. But since GOTCHA,the name of the paintball field we went, is located in Antipolo, the pathways are inclined and steep. This made us difficult to go downhill. We endured and finally we reached the place!

The adventure began. Although we were only four, we were able to experience something that we can cherish for the rest of our lives. I just can't imagine that at our age, we still think of these kinds of activities to amuse ourselves. I will always look forward to experiencing more activities to come. :)

How I spent my Valentine's Day

This is the first time that I celebrated this occasion alone. I mean most of the time I'm with my special someone, but this time, it's not the same as what it was used to be. It's not because I'm single. Well, I'm not.


My bf is living miles away from me. We've been having a long distance relationship. Actually, it's not the first time that I experienced this. It's my second time. So, why am I whining about this? Maybe because I'm envious (just a bit) of the couples around me. Last year, I was living somewhere in the Middle East (people there don't celebrate that kind of occasion), so I didn't really care about it. But since I'm already back here in my homeland, where you can find a lot of sweet couples everywhere, I feel affected of not being with him. But actually, I felt it was just an ordinary day at the end of the day (maybe I just thought of it to convince myself). So, how did my Valentine's Day go?


This weekend, I spent my days attending my niece and nephews field demonstration at my former school. I felt like I was a mom of those. I was taking their videos, letting them eat and taking care of them. "That's a responsibility", I thought. It's a rewarding experience for me to be with them. Maybe it's a preparation for me in the future (haha too early to think about it). Anyway, I had fun being with them and I forgot feeling lonely about not being with my bf. Well, he doesn't want me to be sad so I'm doing an effort not to feel that way.

First time

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